late na 'to bwahaha. but merry christmas, guys<3 i got to make a christmas card this year. it's so ugly, i love it.
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murr chrsiwamts from us<3
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Helo & welcome!
hiii, ako si gabi. I'm currently studying in Sydney, but I've lived mostly in The Philippines, bouncing back and forth from Manila a...
12/26/24
blog comeback!
kunwari pa ako sa title ng post na 'to, but this will be my last blog post this year from all the familiar places i have ever been to. today i will venture into uncharted territory and i can't wait to share it with you guys. belated merry christmas! did you have a good one? i hope you're looking forward to the new year.
i'm sharing a couple cool photographs for no reason at all:
i miss her already </3
wala pa palang recap post yung blog for this year bwahahaha. i'll see if i can post one before the year ends. ingat kayo!
12/11/24
merry christmas and happy new year
next year na ata ako babalik dyan. may mga sinabi sakin na nakapag-pabago ng isip ko tungkol sa dumadalas na mga bisita ko sayo. i've been thinking of you too much, and i wasn't even in the picture when it all came down. i needed a reality check and i know you already have nothing to worry about. maybe i'll see you on your birthday, but who knows? i grew up asking what was wrong with me and why i always ended up alone, pushed away, and unwanted. i'm done asking. i would be lying if i said that i now believed that nothing is wrong with me, but i have come so far from all the self-hatred i built from growing up in this... situation. i'm grown up and my heart got so big it regularly swallows worry with no leftovers. it's never fair to argue with ghosts, but did you ever really listen?
dream
we were the owners and on-hand directors ng isang building. it felt like a shelter, a refuge for those struggling or just needing a helping hand. i walked around the halls of the place and found that may mga rooms na buhay na buhay dahil sa events and may mga rooms with lined up beds kung san nag stay ang mga guests. the place was really alive and palipat-lipat ako from one place to another para mag asikaso ng bagay bagay. it felt like the building was effective and we were making a difference. i went outside the building to check sa mga people na kararating lang ng shelter para ma-orient and para magpaalam sa mga guests na paalis. i talked to a couple older than us. they seemed like nice people. i noticed our building was along a main road sa isang bayan somewhere in the province. and then nung pagbalik ko sa loob ng building, i found you. nakatulog ka in one of the rooms with beds for the guests. it looked as though you really didn't want to fall asleep. kararating mo lang at the time and i assumed you came from an outreach or a different off-site project. seeing how you were so tired, i just laid down with you kahit hindi pa matino pwesto mo. ginising kita onti para ma-adjust pwesto mo into something more comfortable then i became the big spoon. it all felt so good. like we were right where we needed to be, doing what we always wanted to do.
