quick announcement

added a photo to the page "cnu b yng gab n yn???" and i'll also be posting from my smartphone now. so expect even lower quality blog posts<3

turtol

One Fold at a Time

hello! masaya ako dahil ito ang first event (outside school) kung saan ako ay naging isang official photographer!! i'm so grateful to the Breast Wellness Clinic ng TPDH for inviting me 💖

here are some of my favorite photographs from the event. 

#OneFoldAtATime

#BreastCancerAwareness

BLOG UPDATE!!!

hellooo!! sa wakas na-update ko na yung mga page and fonts ng blog.

i made updates sa:

• banner slideshow
• blog title font
• footer nicknames
• most fonts

and sa following pages:

• cnu b yang gab na yan???
• pique my interest
• photo portfolio
• mga mahalagang tao sa buhay ko
• gumdrop (degen be warned)
• everything i will never get to tell you
• upcoming projects^^

by tomorrow, i'll also be uploading content na nauna mapost sa facebook.

i'll also be looking into putting ads on the blog, pero pag-iisipan ko pa.

thank you for the continued support. stay safe!

i am afraid not of thunder, but the rain

as a child, there's nothing i hoped for more than the rain to stop. the edges of our roof leaked, bringing water down the walls. basins would not have been effective in collecting all the water so we'd put rags and cloth on the floor against the wall hoping it would be enough. sometimes it would, but when powerful typhoons came and the roof's condition got worse, we'd constantly have to mop the floors while the water came pouring down, ruining the paint and leaving bubbles of water between it and the concrete. at times, this would go on for hours and we'd have to move around the furniture and deal with the overwhelming influx of dirty rainwater. it always left a smell of a mix of rust, concrete, dusty rags, and wilted leaves. i was terrified every time, imagining the house filling up with the cold, dirty water and my arms would be too tired from the continuous mopping to try and escape swimming. i never learned how to swim anyway. i couldn't understand how people outside the AM radio didn't loathe the rainy weather because it always meant that i would get wet inside my own home and would smell like what i've described. the roof getting fixed a few years later was what i considered to be the best thing to happen to my life at the time. i've since moved to a different house with no leaks, but in the back of my head, i still feel anxious when it starts to rain.

walang katapusang anything

pls be safe in this weather.

conversations demo

this song is about

link to the song

photo portfolio page update!

switched out 2 photos sa photo portfolio page with newer and (in my opinion) better photos! check em outttt^^

kaw nnmnnnnnn???

hello ako'y nandito muli para ibuhos ang mga naisip ko ngayong araw. ang galing, hindi mo naman ata alam na ganito na tayo kaclose. eh kung kapitbahay ko lng naman ung sementeryo edi naririnig mo na agad yung mga ganitong kwento ko. gusto kong isipin na gumaganda ang buhay ko. kulang na kulang parin ako sa effort, pero paunti-unti nagagampanan at napagbibigyan ko ng panahon ang mga bagay na pinlnano ko noon. hindi mo naman nalaman yung mga plano ko para sa sarili ko, pero noong nagsisimula palang naman ako, hindi ko rin naman akalain na matutupad ko ang mga yun ng ganito. 

masaya ako. takot na takot parin (wlang bago), pero masaya. marami pang mangyayari bago matapos ang buwan na to. i have no idea who i'll be by then. i have no idea who i'll be to them. ang tanging nais ko lang ay maging sapat ako sa mga tatahakin ko. naaalala mo pa ba yung kinwento ko sayo? isa yun sa mga pinaka mahalaga sakin ngayon. ayun din ang talagang nais ko malaman kung ano ang kalalabasan. 

nabigyan ako ng pagkakataon na ipagpatuloy ang buhay na ito at gagamitin ko ang panahon ko para tugunan ang mga pangarap ng pusong wasak kabilang ang mga minamahal nito. 

fast-paced comfortably anxious seconds of dripping sweat

it's these redefining moments one dreads and subconsciously anticipates. to be put in scenarios of absolute tension and euphoria. to feel so alive in both the greatest and worst ways. lying therein a balance one is constantly overwhelmed by. the relentless waves impose a revelation that one never wanted balance in the events this journey will take them. one wanted perfection for an imaginary world. a tale no one would care to see. is a deeper understanding of oneself all that is left and meant? are bittersweet stories all one can be a part of? one chooses to be blind to the possibilities laid before them considering one cannot plant their own foot in making their own decisions. is there a greater struggle than knowing what you want but not being able to do anything to acquire it? one lets life take its course and grieves for having no control. one talks with a facade of intellect hiding one's hypocrisy. one asks, "can't forever start sooner?" while praying for most things to be over. one ponders what happens to those who venture in the search for purpose and find the answers to be lacking. where does one go when all else falls to ruin? the sea is so far. the tides are low and no one is waiting.

MERON NA AKONG PANG EXHIBIT

MERON AKONG 7 PICTURE FRAMES NA MAY LAMAN NA AT KULANG NALANG AY PAGSASABITAN. MERON DIN 1 HIDDEN FRAME NA MAKIKITA LAMANG KAPAG ANOOOO BASTA. I'M SO EXCITED AND DUMBFOUNDED KASI NAG-EEXAM DAPAT AKO NGAYON PERO WHOOOOOOOOOO!! PLS KUNG MAY ALAM KAYO NA PADER NA PWEDE PAGSABITAN LET ME KNOW GUSTO KO LANG ISHARE SAINYO ANG LAHAT NG 'TO KASAMA ANG MGA ZINES NA FREE AND I THINK I NOW KNOW SAAN AKO MAGSESETUP NG POP-UP EXHIBIT OK BRB GTG LABLAB

edit ko tong post later pag done na ako sa gawain

ayun na nga ho ano? meron na mga framed works to exhibit. may mga kulang pa para sa pop-up exhibit like yung poster for promotion, free zines (kulang pa copies ko sa bahay), small pieces of art, donation box, feedback form, letter of appreciation to those who will come check out the exhibit, broadcast booth, etc. pero this is a big step to making another dream come true. i really can't wait to be able to share this with you all. although most naman ng laman ng exhibit ay mga napost ko na, i'd like to think kaya ko rin ioffer yung effect na nakakamangha dahil nakikita sila in real life.

nagka-idea na ako sa isang place kung saan pwede itayo ang pop-up, althought it might not be the best in terms of foot traffic and it's quite exposed to the weather. 

i may or may not be on my way to successfully creating a smol exhibit that can be hung anywhere

more details and dum posts soon i'm just too occupied for blogging rn sorry</3 

is this all i can do?