minecraft!

let me know if you want to join the server! i'll send you the link

it's casanova season again. i hope it lasts long.

naaalala mo ba yung kantang to? i shared it with u hoping you'll like it as much as i do. nagkaroon ng panahon kung saan ikaw yung naiisip ko sa kantang to pag pinapatugtog ko habang umuulan ng malakas. ngayon ko nalang ulit naalala yun. nasa labas ka parin ba pag umuulan? pinipili kong manatili nalang dito sa bahay at damdamin yung malamig na hangin. pinagmamasdan ko kung paano niya iniiba yung galaw ng bawat patak ng ulan bago tuluyang bumagsak sa mga bubong. hindi ko alam. hindi naman nagbabago ang ulan, pero ibang iba na siya ngayon.

looking for blogger content finds

i don't remember when i made these, but i was thinking about it recently. i would very much like to make some more of these with more frames and maybe with a different subject.

one of the first ugly poems i wrote

and i am the lint forever blown by the wind.

This may be our only time 

for i cannot pick you up from the grass.

i am only able to watch you bloom while i float away.

But the wind is kind. it blows both ways. 

On another day

i might fly again by your sight. 

And when it does come,

would it be the worst if i stuck onto you?

words from an old post

i want to own my little corner in the world. i want it to be filled with the things i love. i want it to be clean and have enough desk space for all my old keyboards and books i'm currently reading. i want the walls to be decorated with the photographs i took with notes that i keep close to my heart, but also along with my reminders and schedules hehe. indoor plants would be great too. i'd love to have flowers outside my window too even if im a storey up. i want to have a drawer i can put my aquarium on so i can keep my fishes close. i could also put my watches in there too. a little wooden cabinet would also be nice. i've been wanting to own a crt for a long time now. and also to put a dvd and cassette player for my collections. i want to have my own closet with all my favorite clothes and cool socks and ties and large jackets. i want my bed to be soft and just warm enough for a good rest. my blankets soft and fresh. i'm gonna have to get more extensions to keep my computer from looking like the cable monster it currently is. i'd finally be able to leave my radio station on air even when i leave the house cause now who's gonna tell me i can't? i'd also need to find a way to store all the headphones i'll be using for different things. i can finally write songs at 3 in the morning and not wake anyone up and call whoever i want without having to talk quietly. i can stare out the window the whole day getting a glimpse of people's lives or keep the curtains shut for a cozy afternoon. i'd let the wind in though, i don't want to miss out on the air from the mountains. i'll continue writing my stupid poems for as long as they feel right. and i'll spend a good amount of my life living in this space and working on things i feel passionate about. i'll still go on walks and adventures with my future pair of high tops, but i would like to get used to this place first. then i'll hop on back to my kei van and drive to places i've heard are nice and maybe meet more people i'll never want to forget about. i might go back home one day and visit. it would be a good thing to do, but now i have to give myself what i have been keeping inside for so long. i hope you'll understand.

the full version of "anong bagay na tungkol sa'yo ang hindi mo pa nasasabi sa iba" that i sent to Geloy and Toneejay.

ito na talaga ang last aurora post hwbdwhdbs. hindi kasi nasama yung favorite part ko dun sa music video. here it is.

i've had very low points in my life and i almost ended everything around October 2022. These days i'm doing way better. When i'm happy, or when i hear a new song i really like, or watch a really good movie for the first time, and make new friends and stuff, i remember to take a moment to say to myself that "i wouldn't have felt or experienced this if i went away." it just makes me appreciate small moments more. i have no plans on ending it all on my own anytime soon.

tbh, i was very stressed by the time the mv came out (until now naman (lagi naman (hwbdhsbdw))) and there was a part of me that felt like i was a fraud in a way?? kasi i said that these days i'm doing way better, but i don't feel WAY better y'know? i might really just be a weak person in general, but at least i've been learning how to fight since then. and i've been learning how to embrace it while not giving myself too much special treatment for it. i don't even know what i'm saying. this might be an ACTUAL blog wtf.

boop!

welcome here sa blogspot!! i've always wanted to have a website. i originally wanted to have my own domain, but my wallet has been hurting since the day i got it so this'll have to do for now. i'm not sure pa ano yung magiging difference nitong website sa facebook page, but i do have a few ideas of what to put on here that I won't share sa page. i might fill this with deeper secrets! i'll share stuff that isn't mine too. i'll share things i love. i hope you'll get to see how this "blog" grows over time. thank you for visiting!^^