2025 with grezelle (sobrang kulang na pictures)

hiiii, my beloved. 

I'm a bit emotional in writing this. 2025 was a whole lot to process and go through. We both went through a lot and we are so lucky to be where we are right now. Congratulations on every achievement this year! You've passed milestones, won unseen battles, and pushed through the hardest days. I am so proud of you. My admiration for you has grown in ways I may never be able to explain, but I will surely spend my days trying to express. I'll always be here to remind you of your great capabilities and strong potential. Thank you for being so endlessly kind. You're literally an angel. Thank you for being my rock, supporting me in ways I never knew were possible. You're my favorite part in every single day of 2025. Masyado mo pinasaya mga araw ko eh bwahaha. I'm so thrilled to be yours in 2026! All I do is miss you. Happy New Year, my frog! I'm forever rooting for your dreams!

Thank you for every awesome adventure.

I will see you soon, I promise. 

my blood and bones,

gabigab :P

2025 Accomplishments

Andamiiiiiiiiing nangyari sa 2025. This year was so busy. I truly lived. Here are some of the things i'm most proud of this year.

• Put up an exhibit - i'm still so hyped and proud of this one. ang galing talaga. ever since nun i was just thinking about the next one. i'm still looking forward to it, knowing it'll come at the right time. 
• Graduate SHS - about time i did that, and graduated in the best way possible. i had friends, family, my beloved, and finished rank 2 in my school while helping others as much as i could. 
• Get a job - hi there! this is gab from REDACTED, how can I assist you today?
• Study in Australia - biggest plot twist of this year. even after 2 months here i don't know how to feel about everything. I'm forever grateful.
• Get another job - SO WHAT'S THE POINT IN ALL OF THIS KNOWING YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE??? hehe sorry but becoming a cleaner to end the year is very poetic to me. I clean houses now. 
• Become Grezelle's boyfriend - this happened around the time i was still in call center, a couple months before i went to aus. sometimes i still can't believe that she chose me like that. you know how unbelievable life gets sometimes? like you'd anticipate the worst of the worst to happen since you've been given something so significant. Grezelle has taught me so many things in life, and she's my best best friend in the whole world! She's the coolest person ever. 

I went through a lot this year, but it's infinitely better to go through life with my flower.

I want to say thank you sainyo (in no particular order):

grezelle, cheesecake, zye, yssa, arv, gwen, paul, jared, ervin, neri, thea, mor, jerome, engelbert, zy, rhy, yui, seb, madjus, AB1B, ms em, sir dan, ma'am abbey, ken, kuya marlon, dash, hara, rov, yana, kevin, noe, caleb, jb, oliver, mark, quin, nalla, dani, lance, jules, ambi, jean, miss frame, tl ian, miss kat, miss faith, noeh, stm, jannah, ahrang, hai, tema, jolie, dr. sabiha, dr. steffi, ian, ms angie, ms mel, tonetz, tita les, dex, nicole, ck, pao, ate gladies, aling glo, tita janet, tito ramil, mga ate ko janelle at cheska, lola nanay ko, charlie, miel, solara, mom nina, nathan, ate ko ace, and all the people i lost. 

I probably forgot to add some people to this list. If you are one of them, I truly apologize, but know that I'm very grateful for you.

Thank you for all the time and all the memories.

P.S.

Thank you so much for 5,000 website views!! follow na kau hehe

December Grief (callouses)

I have been grieving over the memories I will not make with my loved ones. Everything is just being put into my perspective - how much time we'll miss, how many moments I'll be by myself, and how different things will be once I get back.

This may just be a phase, but it hurts. 

They told me this was going to be a tough path, but hopefully it'll be worth it. 

Life is so strange. so strange.

palagay lang ako hahaha

i love windows media player

kagabi i was chilling nd resting, hopped onto the bed and listen to my mp3s on the crappy chromebook. i loved the battery visualization of strawberryaid and the effect my dirty, blurry phone camera lens gave when i tried recording it. I took a quick video and layered a song I've liked for quite some time now. I posted it to my story thinking nothing of it, but came back to tag the artist just in case. lo and behold i got the notification that they replied to the story and even reposted it!

so cool!

i miss her so much

i want my girlfriend

gabi's postcards. send yours nowwwww!!!!

 

first impressions of sydney

mover

: grezelle

CLEANER(S)

i have a new spotify playlist, another one without direction. i'm now a house cleaner and work is nice even if it's tiring. i can listen to music and i made this playlist so i wouldn't have to whip out my phone every couple songs and look like i'm slacking. 

a lot has happened since my last update. i've been here for more than a month now. i got a laptop, savings, assessments done, endless plans to go home and visit, and of course the cleaning job.

i feel like i've been experiencing so much that i can never truly take every moment in. i yearn for a windy sunset and a second to pause. 

because i'm kind of miserable.

things are slowly sinking in (i burned my fingers).

i've started feeling guilty over being sad about where i am in life because my privilege has been growing and my opportunities being fulfilled. i'm scared i'm again becoming someone i don't want to be, i need to be more careful. 

a lot of the nights are sad, but i'm trying my best to keep it all under control. i haven't been too successful with that bwhdabhsba but i am really trying my best.

i'm really fine and i'm handling everything pretty well in my opinon hahaha. i'm very grateful of everything that has happened so far, and having a partner that completely understands just makes life easier. i need to be better for her. 

i'm very hopeful. 

i haven't been able to work on anything too seriously. i can't create much art, but i'm putting everything together little by little. it's a little hard trying to balance so much, this all so new to me.

Hello announcement

This blog will change its domain from gaboring.blogspot.com to gabspace.blogspot.com

idk kelan ko gagawin, but i will.

Oh my sweetest Grezelle,

    I immediately think of you when I get to see places that would be perfect to sit down, talk, laugh, and relax. You'd love it here. Andaming mga puno, bulaklak, and places that promote peace and quiet. Pumapasok sa isip ko na gusto kita ayain papunta sa mga lugar na yun, pero malulungkot din ako agad dahil hindi naman natin magagawa yun sa ngayon. 

Namimiss kita pag nakakakuha ako ng mga maliliit na snack na gusto ko sana itabi at isiksik sa bag mo or paghatian natin. I miss eating with you. I miss looking at your plate and watching you eat your food. I miss buying good food together and see just how much you enjoy it. 

I'm so jealous of everyone there. Everyone who gets to see you, talk to you, even those who merely get to sit next to you sa jeep. I wish I could've taken a piece of you with me and I could've left a piece of me there with you. 

Sana makapag bakasyon ako agad dyan. It's not normal for people to endure this kind of separation bwahahaha. I'm so sad, but then again I'm so grateful to have something as precious as you to miss and yearn for. Kita yan ni croc-dino plushie kung gaano ako kalungkot sa kama ko sa gabi kasi matindi pagkamiss ko sa'yo hehe.

I'm very scared of the times we just won't be able to be there for each other. I know it's good to learn to be independent even if nandyan ang isa't isa, but part of it just doesn't sit right to me. I want to be able to be there for you 24/7. I'm scared I can never be fully part of your days for quite a while. I'm scared there will be events that will pass and I'll never get to know them. I'm scared to miss thoughts and emotions you'll be going through. I know I should be brave, but I am terrified.

Please never let go. Please never let go. I cannot lose you. Whatever happens, time will pass anyway. Let's please wait for each other. Please wait for me to come take you. Wait for me to come back.

As I have said, I have spent and will be spending all the seconds I exist far from you wishing that I was reunited with your heart. 

Thank you for giving me a chance, grezelle, rei, elle, shell, str4wb.rei, kolehiyala ko, my future teacher, my awesome sauce, my everything burger, crush ko, my girlfriend. Please always be safe, be kind to yourself, and eat good food. Spend money on yourself and give yourself the treats you always deserve. 

I currently cannot think of a romantic way to end this one, but let's continue to be hopeful for our future. This is only the start of our love story. Trust me, everything gets better pag pinakasalan na kita.

elle fish, frog elle, ellesaurus, my swan.

+ Thank you for trying your best to upgrade our communication. You've been doing so good! Bili tayo phone mo soon. 

I am now unemployed. (and looking to get a job and am currently 6,260 km away from my grezelle) AND SCHOOL STARTS THIS THURSDAY （>﹏<）

Hello. Today I went out to get a photo card, look for a job, and get a feel of exploring shopping centers by myself.

Grabe yung huling update ko nasa Pilipinas pa ako and nasa 12th floor ako ng Philplans tinatanaw school ni cutie ko. So much has changed since then. Andami ko napagdaanan, naramdaman, at natutunan. I had to focus on work and my wife kasi nakaranas din kami ng mga unexpected na problems. Naitawid naman namin lahat by working together and always helping each other. Naubos na rin time ko sa work and pagod because of it. Tsaka hahaha nasira computer kooooo. Bwisit na yun. Okay lang, ilang years din niya ako tiniis dahil sa overuse ko lagi lagi lagi. 

I am currently typing this sa Library ng Willoughby sa Australia. I came here 6 days ago and I was only given a weeks notice para magready pumunta dito from the Philippines. I will be studying here for 3 years and I don't know when I'll be able to go back home to my love. 

Bigla nalang naapprove visa ko eh. Pauwi ako non sa work. Literal na kakababa ko lang sa 7-11 tinatawagan pala ako ni tita ko. 

I don't really know how I feel. I'm not really that used to conversing in English in public. Mostly I've just been trying to enjoy the quiet. I've been very cold here.

I'm very grateful and I hope I do well here. Baka kaya ko naman ipak to. I want to do well for everyone who believes in me. Gusto ko bigyan ng magandang buhay sila.

Hindi kami nagkaroon ng perfect na "see you later" kasi hindi rin ako functioning really well ever since I knew that I was going away. I hadn't been the best partner to her. I could have been better.

I miss her so much.

Ang hirap talaga na mixed emotions na excited and masaya sa opportunity, pero syempre nangungulila naman sa yakap at halik ng tahanan ko. 

Life has changed a lot since I graduated SHS, life has changed a lot since I dropped out of SHS before, and life has changed since I got depressed at almost the beginning of High School. 

Anw, wala akong device pang blog ngayon kasi yung chromebook bwahahha sira sira ibang keys. 

Idk when the next update will be.

Ingat po lagi.

i got a j*b

Hi guys. I know last update ko ay noong graduation pa. Late post pa nga yun eh. Ngayon ay nagtatrabaho na ako sa Sutherland sa Philplans. Training palang naman ako ngayon, pero ever since grad, andami na nangyari. I wish I could've kept up posting and natapos ko pa yung updates na gusto ko para sa website. Andami ko tatanggalin sa main page and pinned post ibabalik ko sa construction bwahaha.

Ngayon actually ay gumagamit lang ako ng internet kiosk sa pantry ng office. Sa 12th floor kami ngayon and ang ganda ng view ko sa labas. Kita ko yung Tauig, Pasig, Mandaluyong, at syempre yung school ng girlfriend ko. Opo, girlfriend. I'm so happy. 

Anyway, feeling ko gagamitin ko mas madalas tong computer sa pantry. Sira rin kasi pc ko ngayon sa bahay kaya hindi ako nakakapag update ng blog. Andami ko gustong gawin na art. 

Right now I just took a photo of my view and ilalagay ko nalang dito sa post pag nagka time. 

I have been growing well as a person. Marami akong narerecognize na mali sa akin na priority ko rin ngayon para maging mabuting boyfriend. Madalas din ako nasa labas ng bahay dahil of course sa work and just being active in life. Nakakabobo rin yung magugulat ka nalang na you have so much to lose. Ang negative ng perspective na yun, but it's true. I have gained so much, and now I have to protect everything. 

Just like how I've said throughout this year, hindi ko alam saan ako papunta. Pero where I am now makes me appreciate the journey as it is taking me everywhere as it seems. Andaming firsts, may iilang lasts, but whatever happens, I just want to be there for my Grezelle. She's everything.

Ano pa ba bwahahha

Madalas ako naka coffee dahil sa work ok brb magkikita kami ni grezelle

MY GRADUATION MOTTO EME

to grezelle (the loml), neri, rod, luigi, ken, maria, sam, sam, zy, ash, kly, yui, rhy, madjus, seb, kris, sir jordan, ms. june, sir arvin, sir bryan, sir rey, ms. em, ms. ayla, sir dan, ma'am abbey, jf, rain, zeke, yssa, zye, arvin, paul, jared, 10-A, ab1b, hm1c, ab3a, ate angelica, kuya jose, kuya renolfo, ms. lei, gwen, nick, lsgh alted, deaf buddy club, aclc, ate frances and clara, tita janet, kapatid ko, momi, cheesecake na nakakatanggal ng stress ang sobrang pagkacute, boss toneejay at geloy na naging dahilan kung bakit naranasan ko na sa buhay ko mag cut class, THANK YOU!!!

graduate na'ko.

and wow, i am not alone.

okay lang sakin na hindi ako nakagraduate nung huling time ko maging grade 12, because i wouldn't have found all of you. dahil sainyo naranasan ko ulit yung saya ng pagiging high school. this is the best ending i could ever wish for. thanks for being my friends. and kay grezelle, thank you for being my forever.

more pics and vids sa next update.

 

I HATE SUNDAYS

a song i listened to reminded me of how much i hated sundays growing up. lagi ko naaalala yung hassle ng mga kailangan for monday and pag-iwas ko sa kagustuhan ng pamilya ko magsimba. then i met you. i couldn't get enough of you and i still can't get enough. since i met you, i wanted to be with you for every second that i breathe. and i couldn't bother to care if i "lost" my weekends. my hands couldn't stay that long without holding yours. i would ask if i could come see you in the weekend and you let me. soon enough sundays became our day to hang out in the weekend kahit magkikita na rin talaga tayo kinabukasan. we'd eat snacks, sit around the places na sawa ka na (sorry), and just talk or walk in silence. it's so perfect. being with you is always so perfect. okay pa kahit raratratin ako sa pag-uwi dahil inabot na ng late at may pasok bukas. i remember how i used to hate sundays, now it's one of my favorite days of the week. i say "yehey! sunday na. makikita na kita uli." and i can't stop thinking of the day i won't have to go away and home is where you and i stay.

message to all of you

hii!! if you receive this message, then you are one of the reasons why i got to do my first exhibit ever! you have boosted my morale, influenced my personality, and supported me in ways i never thought i could be supported. i am truly grateful for all your help and i would not have been able to make this dream come true if it weren't for you. so thank you. whenever you need any support in doing your passions, do ring me up. because you deserve the same support you give out for free.

ito po yung naging final na itsura ng exhibit. thank you ulit so so much!! let's keep doing what we love ☆(≧∀≦*)ﾉ

wow binuksan ung qr code

bwahaha sorry hindi pa ready yung page na to kasi super busy, but i hope you liked the mini exhibit. let me know what you thought abt it and maybe visit this page again another time to see more cool stuff! may ilalagay ako dito eh.

helloo!! sa wakas may time na ako para edit to. i want to thank you for checking the exhibit out and caring enough to take an interest in the QR codes. this all means a lot to me, so thank you! lahat ng nasa board na nakita niyo ay gawa ko. from the photographs to the collage to the small pieces of free, poorly written poetry. i am very proud of what i have been able to compile sa mga gawa ko since 2019, and i do hope it has made a good impact on you. 

i will be releasing all the digital copies of the photographs included sa orignal plan ng exhibit by this summer, so stay tuned for that. probably matatagalan ako kasi inconsistent ako and very busy with a lot of tings. anyway, do have a great summer!

all this still feels unreal. i never thought i'd be able to do this this year and let alone sa school. thank you so much sa lahat ng sumuporta!!! thank u ma'am berna for letting me do this and thank u to all my friends who cheered me on. thank u sa nanay ko na kahit di niya gaano gets ginagawa ko ay nagtatry sumuporta. and thank you to grezelle, my beloved, for supporting me like crazyyyyy. thank you guys. labyu. 

CALL FOR DONATIONS!!!

hi guyss, this week i'm set to have a mini exhibit sa school ko showcasing my photographs and mixed media collages and stuff. i'm very excited to show my work like this for the first time ever, pero limited ako sa funds para sa mga ideas na gusto ko sana iexecute, so i am asking for support in the form of donations if any would be willing. any amount helps a lot and i have a small thing planned for donorssss. more details about the exhibit to be posted soon, but for now, here's my gcash account where you can send donations. thank you so so much!! please don't be anonymous in sendingggg

09304819780

thank u thank u thank u so much for all the support!!! 

dry press!!! first timeeee!!!!

these are the first live flowers i have ever received and they came from my forever valentine. i feel so loved. the sun feels so nice on my skin. everything feels so possible.

 

there are no rest days

the goal of not stopping and creating something greater than i could explain still lives on, i'm just taking my time and learning a bit about growing up, making changes, and loving the strawberry girl