the last day of september

i woke up on the couch. i hate the feeling i always get when i realize i fell asleep and now i woke up with the sky already too bright for my eyes. i always feel like falling asleep on the couch is wrong and in my dazed state, i run down to bed to continue my sleep. i had a long dream that made it seem like i was waking up deep into the afternoon, but i woke up before lunch anyway. i forgot what the dream was about, but it looked to be a funny one. i'm doing research and thinking about changing my sleeping schedule to focus on reviewing for college entrance tests. my family leaves for a bit and i get very productive. i can accomplish so much in my ideal workspace. before i get the chance to have brunch, a strong burning smell makes me think of all the things i'm ready to pack into a bag and save before the house burns down. there's smoke coming out of what i could tell is my neighbor's kitchen. it went on for a few minutes as i and my family discussed what it could be while getting ready to contact the fire department. it was probably just a forgotten stove as the smoke appeared white and the stray cat sleeping on the roof outside their kitchen window looked unbothered as if it was a normal occurrence. brunch was good. and i'm back on the computer doing research. nag post ako sa page. hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan yung mga ganitong post na ang daming pictures, pero at least medyo nasusunod na ulit yung pangalan ng page bwahaha. i can sense my future self cringing over the words i am sharing. manigas ka dyan. i got to pay for one of my exam permits. i have 20 days to prepare, but i should have thought about this sooner. i'm still doing research and i've had my panic attack for the day. gusto ko mag sting. wala na mag ooctober na. i'm quite nervous for this month if i'm being honest, but i am looking forward to all the emotions i am definitely going to drown in. 

osya na marami pa pwede gawin. until next time, september. tnx for being not so bad.

getting used to these visits

is that a good thing? nagpost ako dito about sa mga ibang bagay na pinag-usapan natin, pero the conversation we had unexpectedly took out a few words i did not know i had buried within me. that may have been my first revelation to you. keep it a secret. i'll let the right person know.

some gab rat for ya

i currently have time to blog because i have no choice but to stay up and work hard tonight

i am very emotional right now. lagi nmn. pero grabeee i currently can't talk about what i want to talk about. i hope i can talk about it with who i have in mind. cnu b un??? this house is exhausting.

i forgot that street photography was this fun