walang tanong na hindi masasagot. walang pangarap na hindi matutupad. walang pagsubok na magpapasuko.

 

not a cover (untitled song)

covers compilation (pahintulot) 2024 version

old notes mysteries

as i was browsing my old notes in my hard drive, i found this one with an interesting statement. what's gonna happen in august 2025?????????????? i'm scared

 

the influence of radio and the birth of DJ Gab

i remember having made a video or a post about the whole story of the radio station, but ulitin ko na para may copy yung website. 

earliest memories ko about the radio is from my summer vacations when i was a smol kid. babiyahe kami ng tatay ko papunta kung saan saan. at yung tanging entertainment namin sa mga biyahe na yun ay kung anong radio station ang sagap ng antenna ng sasakyan. minsan kasi lumalayo kami to the point na yung station na pinapakinggan namin ay yung local na ng province. it was a good source of "new" music and i liked listening to the DJs mapa-drama o comedy man yung show. ang naaalala ko, may station pa noon na 12pm yung drama show nila which was strange for me kasi sanay ako na gabi yung drama. then meron yung mga tumatanggap ng callers sa gabi and it would range from drama talaga to very funny conversations between the DJs and the caller. 

pag-uwi mula sa vacation, nadala ko na yung hobby na makinig sa radyo. doon sa bahay ng nanay ko pag weekday ng gabi, mga 9pm siguro, may fav show kami sa MOR ata or YES fm. papakinggan namin at matatawa then matutulog na bago pa matapos yung show. may time pa nga binuksan ko ang radyo tapos nagtataka ako bakit hindi pa nagsimula yung show kasi lagpas 9 na. ayun pala weekend nun and it took me so long to realize. 

nung teenager nako saka ko lang ulit naalala yung mga moments na yun. yung paghiga ko sa sasakyan habang dinadamdam yung pinapatugtog sa radyo habang bumabiyahe. yung tawa ko sa kwarto habang nakikinig sa isang DJ na babae at isang DJ na lalaki. at yung tuwa sa tuwing maririnig yung mga paborito kong kanta na hinihiling ko na ipatugtog nila. at doon na pumasok sa isip ko na tumingin online kung mayroon ba na posibilidad na ako mismo ay maging radio DJ kahit for fun lang, pero nasa isip ko hanggang ngayon, mangyayari lang siguro yung ganung "DJ for a day" kung sumikat ako online at nagkaroon ng maraming clout. so hindi pwede yun unless gawin ko na actual job which my parents wouldn't be happy about. until i saw how people owned their own transmitters. usually for communication, but there were these people called pirates. i looked a bit deeper and found out that i'm going to be one of them.

mahal ang transmitter kahit maliit lang and low powered, so i had to put aside the dream several times throughout the years. until i had an opportunity noong 2022. maybe a month after the lowest point of my life. so i pushed for it to happen like it was life or death (pretty much was.) 

i got the transmitter and it was time to finally put some work into the station. ang pinaka matagal na process ay ang calibration from the antenna to the audio settings to the peripherals. until now i still have a lot to learn and i have to upgrade my antenna to reach the station's full potential. ito ang pinaka nagustuhan ko sa radio ko. it's not that easy. so i have to work hard to make it happen. 

i had a radio show that ran for a few months nung 2023 before ako mag-aral ulit. it was called The Midnight Show with DJ Gab. nagpatugtog kami kada Thursday from 11pm - 1am. natuto ako bumuo ng program and flow ng show with every broadcast. my host voice (?) isn't as good as i'd want it to be nor as it as energetic as it is supposed to be, but i've had the most fun broadcasting and making a fool out of myself just so i can build my hours on air. 

these days i mostly use the transmitter so i can play music from my computer to the amplifier upstairs which has a radio. para todo ingay ako minsan dito sa bahay. though i still have a couple plans for future broadcasts. maybe after i upgrade my antenna. i'll let you know naman.

p.s. don't snitch on me ty

old version of my setup. i had to manually put it all together every thursday evening. kapagod.

the amplifier listening to my broadcast

ito earliest (and only) video i have of testing out the transmitter's output using my tiny radio.

the cheesecake song

even if i barely finish the songs i write and end up hating every single one of them, i am not giving up on the dream of writing, recording, and releasing an album (or even an EP.)

ZINE NUMBER THREEEEEE

grabe yung "upcoming projects" page ibang mga zine pinagsasabi tapos kung anu anu ginagawa ko whbdhsbdw. anyway i just wanted to see if makakagawa nga talaga ako ng mas maraming zine for much less if black and white lang and pinaxerox ko lang yung original print. and the answer is obviously yes. ito ang pages ng zine which i again made completely digitally through canva. pero ito yung first zine na may ginamit akong picture na hindi sakin. i have yet to talk about the obsession with wanting to create things with completely original material. anyway i hope you like it^^

^ ito fav page ko <3 ^

the notebook i used for this school year

noong bagong bili ko palang to, alam ko na gusto ko punuin ng kung ano ano. gusto ko yung mula palang sa malayo, alam ko na notebook ko yung nakikita ko. hindi ko alam kung sa paggamit ko na or sa material lang mismo, pero nasisira na yung hinges (?) niya kaya nilagyan ko nung tape. i think art can be found in everything, so i'm sharing what it currently looks like before i retire it into a journal or something. i'll be using a different notebook for the upcoming school year.

i'll keep on writing bullshit until i physically cannot

^ this one's my favorite. ^

 

listen to me yap for 30 minutes about the evolution of my workspace which i don't clean as much as i have to

how an angel flies away (very vulnerable)

some pages from my newest zine. i made it as a gift to be sent to someone who had inspired a lot of my work. they have been a big part of my life. ito ay para sa lahat ng mga pag-uusap na hindi magaganap.

my minecraft skin

skin ko sa minecraft si rei ayanami. sharing the file i used para sa mga gusto gumamit and partly para rin alam ko na ngayon san ko mahahanap sa cases na nawawala every time i lose the skin (has happened twice now)

i forgot to tell you a lot of things

i'll be preparing a list of things i have to say so i won't forget anything else next time. 

june 9 leg breaking

lumabas ako ng june 9 kasama dalawa kong kaibigan. i was beri beri sad and by now i forgor ano yung actual plan namin para lumabas, but it used to be a thing we regularly do. i had a fun time. here are the photographs taken that day.

BAGONG ZINE!!!

hello! dahil walang pasok nakagawa na ulit ako ng zine. it's the "how an angel flies away" one i posted sa "upcoming projects" page. i dunno if i'll ever comepletely share this zine with y'all cause idk. but here's the back cover!

a cozy night to feel nostalgic for

i keep thinking of a night full of rain. i'll be indoors and immersed in whatever. i could be listening to music, watching a movie, o kahit nagsesenti lang. i want a moment of comfort like that. i don't know if i want to have someone else's presence in the scene though. would i want to spend it alone? would i want to spend it wishing for someone specific to be there with me? would i want to spend it talking to them instead? hindi ko maexplain yung feeling eh, pero, of course, i've had a few moments like that before. maybe i'm just referring to moments of peace but with an underlying feeling of melancholy. 

to anyone who'd be reading this, i hope you're comfortable and calm.

Julez

i found this recording i made in 2021. this is a very special song to me. i've spent many nights falling asleep listening to it.

Words From Letters Sent to Past Lovers

hi. it's taking me so long to release the printed version of my first zine, so unahin ko na yung release ng digital version 4 freeeee! i hope y'all like the words.