words from an old post

i want to own my little corner in the world. i want it to be filled with the things i love. i want it to be clean and have enough desk space for all my old keyboards and books i'm currently reading. i want the walls to be decorated with the photographs i took with notes that i keep close to my heart, but also along with my reminders and schedules hehe. indoor plants would be great too. i'd love to have flowers outside my window too even if im a storey up. i want to have a drawer i can put my aquarium on so i can keep my fishes close. i could also put my watches in there too. a little wooden cabinet would also be nice. i've been wanting to own a crt for a long time now. and also to put a dvd and cassette player for my collections. i want to have my own closet with all my favorite clothes and cool socks and ties and large jackets. i want my bed to be soft and just warm enough for a good rest. my blankets soft and fresh. i'm gonna have to get more extensions to keep my computer from looking like the cable monster it currently is. i'd finally be able to leave my radio station on air even when i leave the house cause now who's gonna tell me i can't? i'd also need to find a way to store all the headphones i'll be using for different things. i can finally write songs at 3 in the morning and not wake anyone up and call whoever i want without having to talk quietly. i can stare out the window the whole day getting a glimpse of people's lives or keep the curtains shut for a cozy afternoon. i'd let the wind in though, i don't want to miss out on the air from the mountains. i'll continue writing my stupid poems for as long as they feel right. and i'll spend a good amount of my life living in this space and working on things i feel passionate about. i'll still go on walks and adventures with my future pair of high tops, but i would like to get used to this place first. then i'll hop on back to my kei van and drive to places i've heard are nice and maybe meet more people i'll never want to forget about. i might go back home one day and visit. it would be a good thing to do, but now i have to give myself what i have been keeping inside for so long. i hope you'll understand.