learning to not love, but also not hate the inconvenience of this crap life

i am starting to look at inconveniences differently. i'm just as anxious about it, but i'm learning to pay close attention and look forward to the consequences that will follow. there's no denying that bad luck makes things more interesting. as much as i am stupidly wrong with that statement, having everything go your way will make you worse than ordinary, but completely dull. there is a specific kind of pain that comes from not having anything go your way and that's my worst fear on certain days.

as soon as i earned enough to get my camera fixed, i took it straight to hidalgo. i just knew i could get it fixed in time and have it ready for an important event happening the next day. i believed i could somehow pull it off. it would be the perfect. months of motivation to be released without holding back. my feet could not stay on the street and the floors of public transportation as every clock on every wall in every building down every street of this unfriendly city ticked second after second, minute after minute. after travelling almost 26 kilometers in 2 hours, i barely made it to a repair shop that fits my budget. relief seeps in as the repairman advised that it may be fixed within an hour. i knew i would not be assured until i could see it work again with my own eyes. i came back to the shop after an hour of great anticipation and worry. it would not be fixed until the following day due to a part needing replacement. i am not capable of writing how the commute home felt. 

but the event went well. nowhere near perfect compared to my impossible expectations, but it wasn't bad. i liked the feeling of realizing that i could just go about my day and spend it how i wouls like. i still did wish that i could have participated more and documented the whole thing, but there was no point in hoping my camera would suddenly appear and save me from brooding. i had a good time. not in the way that i have planned, but in accepting that life's a bitch and i might as well ball and furgetaboutit. at least i had my way with not having to jump in a pool. 

i recieved my camera when i got home. she has recovered from her injury, but suffered side-effects as expected from a haggled repair. 

so ayun ang kwento kung paano bumalik ang pinaka-malupit na D40 sa buong mundo. nagamit ko na siya ulit and kahit tamad ako mag-edit, pati dun naganahan ako para mashare itung mga sumusunod sa larawan.

p.s. sali kayo team montago 

ms. butterfly ring

kuromi

i forgot her name

ms. butterfly ring with sylvie

gelle water consumption manapat

me after ng romeo and juliet

but without the certain part that i cannot say cause spoilers????????

pinost ko rin to sa facebook. medyo naninibago ako kasi parang hindi naman ako ganito ka-elaborate mag yap dun pero ano na gagawin ko ngayon hbwdhabshdw i know i said i wanna focus on the website, but it's too much work for me right now. you'll know when i'm actively working on things here. tsaka medyo gusto ko rin mag lean muna sa platform na mas established na. never quitting this though. unless google trashes blogger.