do i care enough?

on some evenings, that's the question i find myself trying to come up with an answer to. in a world that thinks only of itself, i want to be its complete opposite for you. i want to listen and pay close attention to every breath you take. i want to look at you with focus on every detail, from the shade of your lips to how the light bounces off the individual strands of your flowing hair, as if i'm painting your portrait. i want to remember like i might forget everything we did when i wake up. i want to bring you the comfort and kindness it has long kept from your heart. i need to make you feel heard, understood, and seen. because i always want to hear from you. i always want to try and understand. and i see you. i feel you. i can never get enough of you. 

i wonder if i ever ask the right questions completely, if i move appropriately, and if i'm liking you correctly.

i hope to see you later.